I’m worried for tomorrow, I’m glad it’s Friday, but I’m hanging out with a friend that I’ve become rather distant with and a friend I grew closer with because of how distant I was becoming with the first friend. Maybe I should assign names again? It’d be easier. So distant friend is Rod and close friend is Kat. Well, Rod and I have definitely been friends longer while Kat and I have only become friends over these past two years. We had the brilliant idea to all go shopping. Well, last time we did this it was awkward, strained, and I’m pretty sure none of us enjoyed the time we spent. How do I know this time it won’t be the same?
I hate the role of peacekeeper, I hate choosing sides, and I hate jumping between two friends trying to appeal to both of their natures. I’m trying to keep my hopes up and not care but it’s pretty damn hard.
The other thing is as school is approaching I’m getting jittery over that. While I need to now commute, I have no idea if it has been approved and I still need to get books, a revised schedule, other crap, and more. I’m not looking forward to it by any means.
I’m kind of short on things today, I want to lie around and let my mind drift. Star gaze, or watch movies. I don’t want these days to end so soon.
Posted on Friday, 17 August
Tagged as: worries playing peacekeeper being in the middle of things jittery anxious shopping with friends awkward friendships thoughts